Can we all stop living for everybody else!?!?!?!?!? The funny thing is is that some don't even know that that is what they're doing! Trying to impress that boy. Doing whatever your parents tell you, even if it doesn't make you happy, just to make them happy. Or trying to one up a frien-emy.... Why did we stoop so low!? In tryin to impress everybody, and trying to keep everybody else happy, and trying to be better than someone, we end up being miserable ourselves. We end up feeling lost, angry, depressed... And we can never figure out why, because when we're playing this part to get everybody to like us, we end up convincing even our self that that is our identity. IT'S NOT! I'm finally realizing that! when I was younger I spent so many years trying to impress this boy at school I had a huge crush on for YEARS.. It was so bad that people knew me if someone just said "She likes so and so." "OHHHH HER!" Yeah... That went on through high school. As I grew older, and started understanding myself a little more... I don't want to say I regret what I did or how I felt, But I wish I loved myself a little bit more to just let it roll off my shoulders and do more things that I was passionate about rather than the things I thought would get a boys attention. Right now, something I'm trying to stop doing is competing with this girl. It's a tough battle to fight... but I know it's a necessary battle to fight, there is no reason to compete, there is plenty of room for both of us in the world.. but there is something inside of me, when I see her that just urges me to compete. But that's not how I want to live my life. And it's not how you should live your life either. If you're not a big drinker or partier.. don't feel like you need to do that to be accepted. Just do things that make you genuinely happy. Things that make me happy are yoga, make up, youtube, music, dancing, fashion, writing, drawing, and nature... I could go more into depth with them because the more I explain them, the more you would realize why I feel like I'm a little crazy, because the genres/versions of each of those that I'm passionate about are soooo different!
I'm sorry this post is a little bit... all over the place, it's a little bit past my bed time, but I really wanted to get a post up!
I'll see you lovelies tomorrow with another new post!
Good night!
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